Updated: Dec 29, 2021
I get very high and very low in life. Daily. It makes me very tired, a lot. I’ve finally accepted that I am sensitive. This is how I am. Sometimes I just need to rest. This is how I was made and because I am sensitive like this, I have a lot to share (also because I talk a lot, straight up).
I also cry a lot. And not in situations where it would make most sense. It makes people very uncomfortable when I cry in meetings, or discussions or for some random thing that makes me overwhelmed or frustrated. To them, it is distracting or confusing. I think they may see me as less powerful than I am. They may want to “fix” it but not know how.
I had a manager many years ago who would not “deal” with my emotions when discussing heated subjects. I knew she saw me as weak when I teared up out of overwhelm or frustration. It made her uncomfortable. It was not her style to show emotion in business. She would tell me to come back when I was ready to not be so emotional. Of course that made me more emotional. Those meetings went really well.
I will just buy stocks in L’Oreal Waterproof mascara and keep on being me.
HOWEVER. I had another manager who was not distracted by my emotions. He would say, “It makes you who you are. It’s how I know you are real. And you encourage our people to be real.” Those meetings actually went really well. I shared, I talked openly and a lot and came up with some KILLER ideas. Because I was allowed, actually encouraged, to just be me.
My sensitivity allows me to feel the pain of those around me. To be able to look at my soul square in the centre and to see my own pain. Of course sometimes I need help, I’m not a unicorn here guys – but then I am able to share, and grow. I don’t have to hide it anymore. I am choosing not to. And I don’t need to fix it. I do not need to hold it back. I am not broken. I am no less powerful. I will just buy stocks in L’Oreal Waterproof mascara and keep on being me.
And if I am too sensitive for you, you are not my people. I will send you off with love.
Your people are the ones that allow you, ENCOURAGE you to be you. With or without the waterproof mascara.
Much love Xo.
Barbie Wharton is a writer, speaker, mompreneur and Bell’s Palsy survivor. Life is better together. And in the sun. Find her on Facebook, Instagram and Linked In. Podcast Guests profile here. Bell's Palsy Talk with Barbie here.